Abandoned

"They were gone! Gone! It was the most terrible thing that had ever happend to him. She had asked him to come and see them, and now they were gone." (142)

John jumps to the conclusion that Bernard and Lenina abandoned him,  without investigating further. This reflects all the times the ones that he loved had let him down. Even though he wanted to trust those around him, he faced constant rejection. First, his mother never really wanted him. She tryed to help him by teaching him to read and conditioning him with what little supplies she had to do so. However, the part of him that comforted her rivaled the part of him that disgusted her. To get away from these complex feelings, she had to seperate herself from him by getting closer Popé and mescal. Followed by this early and repeated rejection, the savage community around him would not accept him as he grew up. He desperately wanted to partake in activities with his peers. So, he watched them and learned their way of life but still that was not enough to fit in, and ultimately lead to more hurt, and his self conflicted punishment. He felt like suffering was a punishment from God, that he had to bare.